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A Secret Confession…. not so secret anymore..

31 Mar

Have you ever just felt completely blah?  A complete and total lack of energy or sense of direction?  Panicked, or anxiety filled? STRESSED OUT?  Hopelessness?  A need to curl under something and wait for the world to pass you by?  What about total exhaustion?  You can’t get up in the mornings, and when you do the world spins around you.  Or a complete inability to sleep ? You haven’t the faintest clue as to why you’re feeling this way, and all that’s apparent is this feeling, right here right now.

There’s a lot to blame for this metaphysical nightmare.  We live in such a fast-paced world demanding constant on the go lifestyles.   Long gone are the days of the simple and uncomplicated.  We’re not riding horses or building homesteads anymore, no, we’re commandeering gadgets and machines that at a press of a button will do almost anything we want!  We have this need to constantly be in control, and have the highest expectations of ourselves and of others.  We likely do multiple things at the same time, and regularly say “Yes” to everything, sacrificing what precious little time we should spend with ourselves and with God.  We’re detached from our emotions, from our spirituality, and have a hard time letting go of grudges, guilt and anger.  Oh, and then there’s stress… we don’t seem to identify well with it, but it’s there – EVERYDAY.  We are completely disconnected…..

Listen, however sad but true, we need to start coming to terms with the fact that society is imploding on itself.  This “way of life” is destroying our ability to be interdependently functional as parents, partners, co-workers, leaders…. you get the picture.  We’ve allowed this to happen because we want more, need more, compete more, compare more, and fact is, if we don’t change, we’ll very likely get taken out by some dis-sease or die.

I’ve been fighting with the above symptomatic issues for quite some time now.  Have you?  For me, it’s a combination of severe depression, stress, anxiety, guilt, pain, the list goes on… and I’ve made a choice to no longer allow this to rule my life.  I’ve found relief in the last few weeks; it continues to be a radical and emotional experience… I call it giving it up to Jesus; creator, savior, died-on-the-cross, loves us unconditionally, wants to have a relationship with us and see us prosper and be fruitful, healthy and happy – you know……. that guy….  How absolutely amazing, incredible, eye-opening, soul gripping… his word is like a light unto my life right now…  I’ve felt that in my darkest hour, there has always been an answer in his word, and how could there not be – its supernatural!

Philippians 4, “5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”  What an amazing promise!!!!

If you’re in this fight; hopeless, hurting, in pain, desperate to find peace & contentement, my advice is to give it to God. I have lost nothing in doing so, and yet have gained tremendously.   It’s not some type of overnight quick fix, nothing happens without faith and commitment, but with time healing starts to take place.. and that’s paramount!   I hope this has been an encouragement to you, and has somehow made you feel a little less alone in this great big world!  We all go through darkness, but know that light always prevails.

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